At some point in 2013, long after my football career had ended but more importantly after my father, Stewart, had passed away, I decided to write my story. I don't really know why or who for, maybe myself even. Being honest, I didn't even know what my story was. I am proud of my football career but it certainly wasn't trophy laden and I was far from a controversial character.
I wrote a few chapters but lost my computer along with our business in early 2015. With time on my minds I started again and 100,000 words (exactly) later I had the raw beginnings of what is now 'Shades of Blue'.
The name Barry Bennell was always going to feature in my book. Why should I hide away from it ? Until the book was finished though I hadn't fully realised what a profound effect this terrible man had had on my life.
Stories of historical child sex abuse in football shook the world in November 2016. 'Shades of Blue' was already on it's way and is the story of a Man City fan, a Man City player and a survivor of child sex abuse.
Co-authored by the brilliant Joanne Lake, 'Shades of Blue' was first published by Michael O'Mara books on 2nd February 2017.